Friday, 15 October 2010

In a relationship

Imagine you are walking at the Mall when suddenly a stranger asks you to pick up a piece of trash on the floor. Would you? You wouldn't. Why? Because you don't know this person and suddenly he's asking you to do a favour. Now picture the exact same situation, but this time it's a close friend of yours instead who's asking you to do that favour. Now would you? You insya Allah will. Hold that thought.

We often find ourselves committing sins and leaving our duties to Allah. We try to not sin, and yet we fail. Day in, day out, we claim we want to change, but again, we keep on failing. At the end of the day, we give up. Syaitan gets the best out of us. Astaghfirullah, grant us mercy ya Rabb! :(

Going back to the first part of this post; what I'm trying to say is that: us humans would only respond to favours if we have a good relationship with the person who's asking for the favour, don't you think so? If you don't like someone, or have zero-relationship with him/her, you are most likely to snub his/her request. Think about it.

The same thing applies to our relationship with Allah. Kenapa kitani mendapati diri kitani masih ingkar kepada Allah is simply because kitani inda kenal Allah, atau hubungan masih renggang sama Allah. If we make an effort to get closer to Allah, Allah shall get closer to us as well. The closer we are to Allah, the lesser we are prone to committing sins. Hakikatnya kitani inda mencintai Allah wah, sebab atu lah kitani berani kan ingkar kepada Allah, malas kan mengabdikan diri kepada Allah. Just the thought of "inda cinta Allah" is scary and almost sounds blasphemous. It's a reality check. Cuba kitani tanya diri kitani - adakah kitani cinta Allah? Tanya hati, jangan tanya mulut. Pasal mulut kitani sering berdusta.

Masalahnya, kitani rasa kitani kenal Allah sudah wah. Tapi look, if we still find ourselves sinning, inda tah tu jawapannya, inda tah kitani kenal tu ertinya. Kitani fikir kitani yang abis ugama darjah enam, pernah belajar 20 sifat-sifat, hafal lagu 99 nama-nama Allah, ertinya sudah tah kitani kenal Allah tu. Cukup kah ilmu sekolah agama untuk menyelamatkan kitani dari api neraka? Inda cukup :( Iatah pentingnya kitani sepatutnya dengan akal yang sihat ani patut continue mengenali Allah. Tiada berhentinya dalam mengenali Allah. There is no end point. It's an ongoing journey.

Dosa memang susah untul ditinggalkan. But don't we give up. If you still find yourself failing to leave a particular sin, make sure hubungan dengan Allah mantap. Insya Allah jika kitani usaha untuk rapat kepada Allah, akan diberiNya kekuatan untuk meninggalkan dosa atu.

Kitani mau status 'in a relationship' with Allah. Bukannya status 'its complicated' atau 'single'.

Diri ini mengingati diri yang alpa ini dahulu sebelum mengingati manusia yang sedang membaca tulisan yang sangat kurang hikmah ini. Semua yang baik dan yang dapat dimanfaatkan datangnya dari Allah, pencipta ku dan pencipta mu. Yang buruk dan yang kurang pula datangnya dari kelemahan diriku.