Monday, 22 February 2010

Pray for your parents

She was on her death bed, she knew it was coming. The struggle has been going on for a while, but this was it. She was struggling to fight the pain, to try to survive. She couldn't live knowing that she was going to leave her children. She tried to refrain. What was going through her mind was that she couldn't bear the fact that she was leaving her children. She tried her best to survive.

She couldn't. Her children was her drive to survive for the period that she had survived before that. This time around, she just couldn't anymore.

Innalillahi wainna ilaihi roji'un.

"Boleh jadi kamu tidak menyukai sesuatu padahal ia baik bagi kamu, dan boleh jadi kamu suka kepada sesuatu padahal ia buruk bagi kamu. Dan (ingatlah), Allah jualah Yang mengetahui (semuanya itu), sedang kamu tidak mengetahuinya." Al-Baqarah: 216.

Redha. Aku redha, ya Allah. Today marks the 18th year of the passing of my mom. As sad as I still am, I have faith in Allah. La tahzan, He tells me, don't be sad, He tells me. I have faith in this ayat below. I have faith in Allah.

"Iaitu syurga yang kekal yang mereka akan memasukinya bersama-sama orang-orang yang mengerjakan amal soleh dari ibu bapa mereka dan isteri-isteri mereka serta anak-anak mereka; sedang malaikat-malaikat pula akan masuk kepada mereka dari tiap-tiap pintu; (memberi hormat dengan berkata): “Selamat sejahteralah kamu berpanjangan, disebabkan kesabaran kamu. Maka amatlah baiknya balasan amal kamu di dunia dahulu." Ar-Ra'd: 23-24.

Here Allah has made promise with me. Allah shall unite "orang-orang yang mengerjakan amal soleh" at jannah's door and His malaikats shall welcome them in with uttermost respect for what they have done in dunia. But I am so far away to achieve that place. I am so so far to be worth Allah's promise. But, Insya Allah, I will keep on going, and I won't stop. Ya Allah, kekalkanlah aku di dalam jalan ini, serta suluhkanlah jalan-jalan dihadapakanku.

Friends, pray for your parents in every solat. Hidup kah mati pebaik, durang ada hak untuk kitani doakan. Kalau biskita inda mendoakan indung, walaupun mempunyai hubungan yang baik sama durang, tapi inda mendoakan durang, nescaya you are an ANAK YANG DERHAKA.

2 comments:

Hazeerah Ariffin said...

It certainly has taken me a lot of time to get the bigger picture here. Allah has shown me that my existence in this world should only mean much more than I previously thought; He has given infinite blessings an extra day He wills us to live to pray and supplicate to Him. Allah menambahkan hari-hari kitani di dunia bukan untuk menambah dosa but to make up for past sins by doing good deeds and pleasing Him. MasyaAllah how Kind and Gracious our Creator is. Significantly also, Allah bagi chance to live, untuk doakan Babu jua. Rasulallah S.A.W. pernah berhadith apabila anak Adam meninggal, amalannya terputus kecuali sedekah amal jariah, ilmu yang bermanfaat dan doa anak yang soleh. whilst i will not admit that i am such a child, i can still pray as long as Allah wills me to, to ask forgiveness for Babu's past sins. Siapa lagi yang mendoakan bapa babu sendiri kalau bukan anak sendiri. Like you said, kami pun mau jumpa 'nanti' InsyaAllah. mau jumpa ditempat yang siuk i.e. syurga. It's indeed a long, long journey ahead, it is important nonetheless to make sure we are still walking towards that path. InsyaAllah. And although I must admit I probably most likely will never be able to not be sad about Babu's leaving (maybe human nature of emotions on my part and weakness), I obviously will never stop missing her but insyaAllah i will not let it overtake my faith in Allah. In fact, it should only be stronger. Allah is certainly The Best Planner and He wills whomever lives He wishes to take. And that itself is sufficient for us. And you are right indeed in your reminding us that even after such hardships He tests us with.. rahmatNya tidak pernah putus.. rahmat Allah is indescribable; it has no limit. MasyaAllah!

Mohammad Khair Al-Hazirin said...

All the strength that we can think of all comes from Allah. He has given us so so much kan Jirs.

Insya Allah kitani jadi anak yang soleh. It's the only way we can contribute and make up for what babu has done and sacrificed for us.

Allahu akbar.